My Radio Is A Millionaire

Man, this as been a crazy ass week. So many ups and downs. Perhaps, too many. But that’s life as we know it, right?

I really started to quit music this week. Yes, you’ve read correctly. I started to give music my two week notice out this bitch.  I guess all the pressure (from myself ) was getting to me.

If you really in the circle, I’m such a fucking bitch about wanting to play music. I always want to play music but I consider myself a perfectionist. I’m very skeptical about what I let people to hear. I want that shit to be so fucking perfect and I had to face the facts that it won’t be all the time. I had to face the facts that not everyone will fall in love with my music.

Then it was the whole “college dropout” thing. I’ve been trying not to drop out of college to pursue music for the longest.  I now understand getting an education is important these days. For example, I was trying to apply for a job with the state making wayyyy more than I do now. But I couldn’t. You know why? I was 15 fucking credits shy of the 60 I needed to apply.  Times is rough as is, I’m trying to make this shit easier.

College isn’t a pain at all. Its just time consuming. At that time I felt like I could be using that time to make music. But I realized that I can do music, work, and go to school. Who says you can’t? So I started planning things more efficiently so they don’t ever collide again. And besides,  if I do happen to blow up, I want to be among the rappers/producers with actual college degrees.

I came to another realization. I actually want to still have a job and do music. Its kinda like that Superman type shit. During the day I’m regular Eugene Dunn and at night I’m Malcolm Maximillion. I feel like the music I make would speak to the people more because I’m actually going through it. How could I rap about hating my job if I didn’t have one? My point exactly.

With that said I’ve been in this room for 6 hours making beats and listening to samples. This beat battle is coming up soon and if I want to win, I gotta focus. So I took some time off from recording “Dreams of An Insomniac” to make more beats. Which reminds me. I got to track out all of these damn beats later. Oh well.

I’m close to saying, “Fuck a video” and actually releasing the “Dexter Morgan” song. Part of me wants to and part of me doesn’t. We’ll see how I feel next week.

I got a freestyle or two dropping this week also. I know a lot of people were taken by the “You Don’t Know My Name Freestyle”, as I recall nothing serious. But this next one is gonna be nuts! I’m using these freestyles to display the many flows and styles I have.  I’m just using my voice to prove a point at this moment.

So stay tuned things are about to get interesting….

-Malcolm Maximillion

~ by Malcolm Maximillion on May 30, 2009.

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